forgetting my days... i hope this kind of experience will be useful in the future.

blasting music in the middle of the desert, working throughout the night.

on the job no matter what day it is, no matter what time it is

but a vacation would be nice

And here we are

Back again

The light in the far far horizon fades

The  night shall come

Darkness devours

Abandon the hope

Lay and rest and die

In peace

if you love me, dont set me free.

i will only walk to my demise.

and yet, here we are again

trust, betrayal

for love, for hate

such trivial emotions and human acts

yet why does it agonize so

i have no evil thoughts to share ... for now

Sunday

happy birthday to me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsDugITBANI&feature=related

Day 30

that would be the beginning and the end. that will be all. i know what i want now.

Day 29

not sure what to do. should i or should i not.

Day 28

foreveres.

where where

Day 27

waiting and waiting.

Day 26

would you be my missing piece.

Day 25

A little lonesome.

Day 24

what is this crappy indifference.

im scared. im alone. but i will persist

been a long road to follow
been there and gone tomorrow
without saying goodbye to yesterday
are the memories I hold still valid?
or have the tears deluded them?
maybe this time tomorrow
the rain will cease to follow
and the mist will fade into one more today
something somewhere out there keeps calling
am I going home?
will I hear someone singing solace to the silent moon?
zero gravity what's it like?
am I alone?
is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet
still the road keeps on telling me to go on
something is pulling me
I feel the gravity of it all

Day 23

saa.... what to do

so close, yet so far

Day 22

ahahahaha... you fool

Day 21

please make it stop

Day 20

la da di da da

Ever try?
Ever fail?
Try again.
Fail again.
Fail better.

Day 19

surrender.

plan, proceed, endure, persevere, triumphant?

Day 18

nothing is impossible?

i come. i see. i conquer!

Day 17

worthy?

Day 16

Urah. feel the pain!

so fkn confused. so fkn tired. so fkn disappointed.

Day 15

To meng:

http://behance.vo.llnwd.net/profiles16/724378/projects/2414352/90529bc94c97de6ba91ad5aeebaddc1d.jpg

honestly meng, why do you care

ahhh... fuck it all

change of plans? i dont know

Day 14

people always use many words to say a simple thing

i hope so. i want to make her happy.

to be a friend.

forgive forgive

buy a home together, take you around the world. get engaged, married, have children that is loved by our families. what is wrong with this plan?

build you a cave, with battlestation. rub your belly and scratch your back. take you out for walks and food, care for you love you and support you. leave some beard and mustache...? its what you want isnt it. tell me.

Day 13

i swear i will treasure it. really i will. please let her believe me. im such a mess, i want to figure this out. i feel like i owe her so much, just let me make up for it. im exhausted, but i cant stop thinking about her.

Day 12

just one more try.

forget-me-not? pfft...

has no feelings for me anymore huh, that was ... sad.

lol, over affectionated... please dont just ignore me

dont waste time meng.

dude, i have no idea what you're doing. you're just talking crap

amazing how much affect it has. pathetic as it seem, i dont resent my emotions. after all its what makes me human. unfortunately that would most likely change over time, i would get insensitive, indifferent and possibly cold.

never mourn.

Day 11

Wishing she would see that i only wanted to make her and us happy, wishing she would understand, wishing all my loved ones a bright future in 2012.