so close, yet so far

Day 22

ahahahaha... you fool

Day 21

please make it stop

Day 20

la da di da da

Ever try?
Ever fail?
Try again.
Fail again.
Fail better.

Day 19

surrender.

plan, proceed, endure, persevere, triumphant?

Day 18

nothing is impossible?

i come. i see. i conquer!

Day 17

worthy?

Day 16

Urah. feel the pain!

so fkn confused. so fkn tired. so fkn disappointed.

Day 15

To meng:

http://behance.vo.llnwd.net/profiles16/724378/projects/2414352/90529bc94c97de6ba91ad5aeebaddc1d.jpg

honestly meng, why do you care

ahhh... fuck it all

change of plans? i dont know

Day 14

people always use many words to say a simple thing

i hope so. i want to make her happy.

to be a friend.

forgive forgive

buy a home together, take you around the world. get engaged, married, have children that is loved by our families. what is wrong with this plan?

build you a cave, with battlestation. rub your belly and scratch your back. take you out for walks and food, care for you love you and support you. leave some beard and mustache...? its what you want isnt it. tell me.

Day 13

i swear i will treasure it. really i will. please let her believe me. im such a mess, i want to figure this out. i feel like i owe her so much, just let me make up for it. im exhausted, but i cant stop thinking about her.

Day 12

just one more try.

forget-me-not? pfft...

has no feelings for me anymore huh, that was ... sad.

lol, over affectionated... please dont just ignore me

dont waste time meng.

dude, i have no idea what you're doing. you're just talking crap

amazing how much affect it has. pathetic as it seem, i dont resent my emotions. after all its what makes me human. unfortunately that would most likely change over time, i would get insensitive, indifferent and possibly cold.

never mourn.

Day 11

Wishing she would see that i only wanted to make her and us happy, wishing she would understand, wishing all my loved ones a bright future in 2012.

if only

it will be a new year soon. a new page in life and i welcome it. may i become the man i want and my loved one find happiness, with or without me in their lives.

Day 10

did i do the right thing?

we were born alone, we live alone and we die alone.

only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion that we are not.

to be sure that you know what im saying, i'll translate as i go along.

blah blah blah...

its rather cold.

Day 9

i wonder if she understands why i did the things i did.

even the occupation i took thinking she would be with me.

i never wanted to travel the world alone.

i believed we would be together supporting each other and in a few years, start a family.

lives and dreams sure are fickle.

i wonder if she has changed so much, or just forgotten what she really wanted. or perhaps i never knew what that was in the first place.